Monday, December 31, 2007
momentum not momentous
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
weapons of mass construction
my selective memory, my rich, dark chocolate, my dreams, every one
of them,and a few more. i need my lover to love me even when she does,
my massive assault on social injustice timed just right to make an impact,
that element of surprise, no backlash just flashbacks, the good ones,
no enemy, just cause and justice. a glass of fine wine or two or three, a friend i
haven't seen in years, and then i don't need much of anything really. just to be.
at home. in love. ya' know?
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Sunday, December 2, 2007
Brother, sister, where art thou?
The streets are slick with rain and I keep wondering where we went wrong.
Not when or why, because the when, the why, doesn’t matter any more. The why is why not?
I drive the snowy roads and remember that wintry day, the white out,
our photograph on the front page of the Atlanta Journal Constitution. Barely daylight,
there we were throwing snowballs, in the front yard on Highland Avenue. Happy. Our lives on fire. We were one.
12-1-07
Friday, November 23, 2007
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Grateful
Friday, October 26, 2007
This is Life
I have this thing going on in my head about what’s happening to our minds. What we expect from life, based on the transfer. What we relate to, based on exposure. What we communicate. We’re not inside our heads anymore. It’s as if we’ve been taken outside of ourselves and have to conform to something more palatable because what could be less appetizing than one’s own limitations. This is the world we live in. This is today. This is life.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
the new new
Monday, October 8, 2007
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
$$
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
At 104
Over and around in color
Talk about truth
He never lies and that's why he took his own life
Kinship with nothingness, the wu chi
Oh how we miss your blue integrity.
Another Not So Happy Birthday, Rothko!
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Yom Kippur
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
another excerpt from September 10th
Doubling over with cramps he gasps for air, clean air, struggles to rid the poison from his lungs, the bile from the complimentary meal, his stomach rebelling. This time heaving uncontrollably he’s unable to make it to the bathroom. With the sleeve of his shirt he wipes off his mouth, stands up and leans against the cool wall of windows for support. Pushing the curtains aside he looks down at Times Square. Must be hallucinating, he thinks. It is vacant, empty of pedestrians. Then again he’s unsure that he is capable of distinguishing between reality and nightmare. Is he awake or asleep? Has he been asleep all this time? Did this really happen? With the plastic Marriott pen he punctures the flesh on his forearm. No, he is not asleep; this is definitely not a dream.
The paper in the vinyl folder with the embossed logo is so clean and crisp. He pages through the Welcome book and looks at the lists—restaurants, shopping, attractions, room service, places of worship. Flashing back to the plaza downtown it appears as an altar of human sacrifice. Like the toxic dump of humanity, mangled among the remains of the supreme excesses of architecture, the
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
excerpt from September 10th
He anticipates the inspector’s ludicrous objections. Not the structural insulated panels with pre-installed electric and plumbing, that is, if the unions don’t rampage. Or the walls of fire proofed recycled newspaper. The galvanized steel roof with photovoltaic panels and the cistern that collects storm water for irrigation, reducing water and energy use. Who could reject this approach in a city notorious for excessive power consumption? They’ll say the Dutch seized
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
conditional love
I shot you and
you shot me
in a wave of violence against humanity
and all we had were pictures to show for it.
I need your shot. You need mine.
I keep wanting to give them up. Yours, I mean.
To say I don’t belong
to these
pictures.
And then…and then…we keep showing up
in them
together.
Despite,
in spite of ourselves.
We keep showing up
to be together,
in spite of ourselves.
We can’t help it;
we can’t recant. is this love?
Is this love?
Dick Heads
This is in commemoration of Karl Rove's("the architect of the Bush Presidency") resignation. It is a detail from a mural collage 'Fornicating Pontificaters' I started more than five years ago. The genesis of this particular section "Dick Heads" came about from walking around and spotting a condom on the ground.{ Don't you just find the creative process facinating} I took a photograph not fully knowing where it would take me. Back at my studio I started inserting photos in the center of the condom.....voila so many dick heads so little time.
Friday, August 10, 2007
when thoughts don't matter
Tuesday, August 7, 2007
excerpt from September 10th
The crack of ice reverberates like a dissonant intruder moving through the loft-like space. Pacing the site line from the euro kitchen back to the drawing table seems like the longest walk of the century, his only solace in the smooth jolt of transparent liquor diminishing from his water glass.
Friday, August 3, 2007
untitled
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Life Goes On.....But Where
67" x 60" oil,gouache,acrylic,paint sticks,chalk on canvas.
I am really psyched this painting will be in a show at Benton Nyce Gallery in September...
Sunday, July 8, 2007
surrender
down the road of wildest dreams
running in place,
after you,
after me,
the light blinding,
brilliant,
blameless,
blazing like flames.
oh baby, burn in hell with me.
Wednesday, July 4, 2007
how to
Monday, July 2, 2007
in the darker days of our humanity
Early morning blends into liquid day
of paint and shoot
and the trickling of words
in between explorations for love and money.
On the stairwell we wonder
if the mind is ours to keep,
if we need to grasp a greater reality
or fall deeper into the mesmeric trance
for the longing breeds the perpetual dance
of time honored and time lost.
Fear not the iron grip
bound and without boundaries
the uphill battle, the down hill slide
past the politics of cruelty,
grazed but yet unchanged.
Hope fades like so many sunsets
in this other worldly place where inequity and injustice,
proof after bold-faced proof (substitute “lie”)
makes a mockery of us.
Timelessness=agelessness
our narrow escape,
stoned on life’s expanding universe
touched by universal truth
but then, what is truth, what must we know
and then to know, how can we live?
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
untitled
can we stop?
can we stop?
if we don’t make it this way.
if we don’t insist
if we don’t resist
if we don’t desist
if we don’t exist.
can we stop?
Monday, June 25, 2007
too late
Sunday, June 24, 2007
art attack
the sound of color
autumn, auburn, audacious
slashing through canvas like the sharpened edge of a knife
so content to claim the space
and the right to preside
among others.
behind muted green of copper rising
top to bottom,
curving round chalky blue
and the endlessness of black
deep, dark
down and out,
longing the longing
and then…
Thursday, June 21, 2007
a miracle
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
geography of a disturbed mind
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
anatomy of a serial killer
Family is the thread in common that weaves throughout my work--whether it's a play, a screenplay, a short story or a novel. We're not talking 'family values' here; we're talking dysfunction, malfunction, inextricable love and all the complex issues that make family an endlessly fascinating subject to explore. The gay sibling, the straight daughter, the suicidal father, the psychopathic son, the intersex child, the bisexual mother, the adulterous grandparent. You name it. They come in all flavors and sizes.
Monday, June 18, 2007
excerpt from unfinished novel
I have a hot, white love. Hot because it burns right through me. White because it's blinding. Each time she walks into the room I turn away with disgust. I know what's going to happen next. Sometimes I imagine The Retaliation. I shove a rag into her mouth. Tape it shut. Tie her wrists and legs. It is fear I want to give her like wrapping paper on a birthday present. It is the fear.
My room is kind of ordinary I guess. Double bed, old bedspread of cowboys and Indians. Posters plastered to the wall. The Unabomber, Johnny Cash, BB King, Theresa Russell and Charles Manson with that nurse. Underneath my mattress are all the magazines and the knife I bought at a pawn shop last week. On my turquoise dresser there's my wallet on a chain I usually hook to my belt, my hair gel, a comb and a little bowl of hard candy my mother always fills. Without thinking I'll take a piece then spit it out because it's so disgusting it makes me want to puke. Shit, man, what's her problem?!
In the corner on my night table is The Shrine. A lock of hair. A piece of rotten fruit. And a fingernail. Infinity plus Wound equals Sacrifice. I'm waiting to take the belt she uses. I want to work that one in.
Sunday, June 17, 2007
the lie he perpetrates
Saturday, June 16, 2007
why don't writers have blogs?
Friday, June 15, 2007
my mentor
I was thinking back to when I first found out that
Mark Rothko spent some time out here and
was even buried a few miles from my studio.....
I couldn't believe it....Rothko painted here,
agonized over his work here - maybe even
contemplated suicide here.
the short of it
All this thought of food is utterly distracting but he can’t stop the cinematic progression. Artichokes drizzled with lemony olive oil. Savory goat cheese with ash. Mussels in Thai curry sauce. Escarole in vinaigrette. Food as sustenance, that and the lusty bottles of
Thursday, June 14, 2007
finished or abandoned?
Toward the end the work takes on a life of its own and it's out of the writer's hands. Anything you attempt seems false and unworthy and you wait patiently, attentively, for your character to emerge.
Five novels later, the end is still an illusion and if I attempt to defy the process, like a convict I'm engaged in forced labor and it's painfully apparent.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
still life No.2
bones of sand
bicycle, cooler, towel,
each and every shell on the beach.
whole palm trees, the village, they were there
swept in torrents
as the wall of water raced the ocean entire.
the indian ocean,
inky black nightmare, vanishing coasts,
whole continents, their ghost like appearance
haunting, the impact unfathomable like a trash compactor.
everything animate and inanimate pushed forward then
swept out to sea except for the arm in the tree and
the silver bracelet, shiny with foam.
i see…unimaginable thirst.
thirst after so much water,
death from survival,
no mercy
only more mercilessness.
my cat and my goat, the only company.
150,000 souls and still counting,
souls reincarnating simultaneously,
animal to man, man to woman, woman to
animal to lover.
you can't stop mother nature, father always warned.
what an understatement.
like a conch to the ear, rushing waters, the wall…and
then the roar, the roar so deafening and the dissonance, the
crack, the snap and then the silence.
new hands, some grains,
bones of sand, sand of bones.
with and without,
invincible. we perished
thirsty, still young, when that kernel
of hope was still alive.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
the low down
Thinking about the open vortices he designed to cool the compound for the money changer, Brian misses the door to the Greek coffee shop and decides to catch the next one two blocks down. When he walks in, at the corner booth, he sees his sister Gracie, her disheveled hair an indication she’d been up all night.
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